I know it may sound weird to many Muslims – that I am using all means open to me to find a husband. Friends, Imams, Facebook and the Internet. InshaAllah. Really it isn’t that weird.
Especially given all the quarks of the Ummah I have encountered on this search. But one things that eludes my grasp is when people do random things. Like brothers – I am interested in suddenly disappearing. Yeah straight up – there the profile was and now its gone – disappearing.
Yes. There is a nice brother I was interested in.. we had a lot in common etc. So I gave him my wali’s number- praying that FINALLY – I have the other half of my deen – signed, sealed and delievered. Ameen.
The brother isn’t ballin.. I wasn’t looking for that. I was however excited he wanted to travel and increase his knowledge in the deen – inshaAllah becoming an Imam one day. I was excited that he was mixed like I am. I was interested because we were on the same cultural wave length – Islamic American. Same issues as converts. He was into having a family and was down to be green – showing some love to mother earth.
So when a brother up and disappears – I have to just be like Alhumdualillah – even though that masks disappointment. Yet again.